Friday, February 20, 2009

What do Abortionists do in their spare time?

I know this is sort of a sick post but today I was just minding my business when i saw a guy who looked like George Tiller ordering a Starbucks. George Tiller is a notorious abortionist in Kansas known for his late term abortions. I saw a video of him where he actually admitted to performing abortions up to the day before the due date. My other blog is my family blog where I like to keep most of my happy posts. Here I have the opportunity to vent as a post abortive woman.

So, as I was watching this guy my mind just went off. It took awhile for me to order my decaf skinny grande caffe mocha. I watched as the Tiller look alike placed 3 packets of sugar in his coffee. He had a paper under his arm and smiled at me. I wondered if George Tiller wakes up in the morning and grabs a Carmel machiato on his way to abort the babies. Does he text his wife as she asks him to pick up the dry cleaning? Does he plan vacations to places in NY where he goes to watch a broadway show and no one knows who he is or what he does? Does he have any hobbies like running or swimming laps? Does he have a favorite football team? I imagine his world beyond aborting babies is filled with many other interests. I would like to think he stays up nights haunted by what he is doing. But I seriously doubt he is. I always am fascinated what evil looks like in the real world. There is no subtext or evil music scoring like in the movies where you would know the evil is coming. In our world we may be rubbing elbows with people who think that injecting a letal needle into the heart of a nine month baby in utero is just all in a days work. There was a woman once that I watched on TV that is convicted for killing her adopted daughter in an uncontrollable rage. She is in jail for 50 years. She admits that she has no idea what came over her and regrets killing her one child. i don't condone what she did but I could see honest remorse and serious regret in her eyes, tone and heart. I aborted my baby too years ago during a time of irrational indecision. I eventually was rehabilitated, transformed and forgiven by God.

George Tiller may kill thousands of babies in his lifetime and continue to read the paper to follow his stocks, shop at Macy's for a new tie and attend a fund raiser for breast cancer and write his abortion money charitable contribution in his tuxedo while the woman who snapped sits in her cell for her lifetime. I wonder if the man who aborted my baby went scuba diving in florida after he aborted Aubrey. I wonder if he ordered a glass of red wine with his girlfriend or watched reruns of old sitcoms as I lay in the fetal position in my bed devastated the night I aborted Aubrey... When I wanted to kill myself because of my awful decision I wonder if my George Tiller equivalent smoked a cigarette after he saw a movie or attended a football game. I wonder if he sunned himself in Cancun as I sobbed in utter regret and grief over my loss.....What was he doing when I quit my dream job because I was incapable of focusing post abortion? Where was he when I broke down in tears in the grocery store because the song with my daughters name came over the sound system? Maybe George Tiller is out spending his abortion money on a new SUV or adding a sunroom to his house while dozens of women are spending their days in the confines of the prisons of their pain and hurt. If serial murder was legal I guess Ted Bundy would have been allowed to hang out at resorts or 5 star hotels as the mothers and fathers of the girls he murdered were never ever the same. This world is too unfair and too surreal for me sometimes....I drink my caffe mocha today and stare at a man who doesn't even know that he is a reminder of my own intense pain. This man who is just a look alike is probably a nice and honest man but the reminders to me are everywhere and will never leave me while the hands that ripped that baby from me are free to drink a coffee, smoke a cigarette, scuba dive, pick stocks and drive his new SUV...just isn't fair is it?????

Monday, February 16, 2009

12 year old speech contest...WINNER!

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Counter Offer

Looking good...for the house. Can you believe it....?There is so much to do regarding setting up closing dates if this happens etc. Counter offer was reasonable so waiting to iron out additional details until deposits go into escrow etc...YAY! On Monday I had lunch with a different woman on a local liberal campus that wants to buy an old frat house on campus for a CPC...I had to laugh and asked her if we could finalize the first targeted sight...Thinking God is thrusting me into some sort of Crisis Pregnancy Center real estate facilitating business...LOL! Not really what I had been trained in ..HA! I do find it fun though......

Sunday, February 8, 2009

Keep Praying...

Okay...we should get an answer from the sellers tomorrow BUT the buyer can now only invest a certain amount which leaves us about 100k or more to come up with depending on what the seller counters with....SO, we are still optimistic but have to restructure a deal and come up with more investors.....Keep praying....have two meetings tomorrow to chat with people who may be interested...

Friday, February 6, 2009

Pray for the house still!

The offer is in and the current owners want the weekend to consider it...I ask for prayer that they decide to move forward. Honestly, the potential new owner is so perfect and even has experience with CPC's before . The wife I believe is truly created for this work as she has a lot of volunteer work with a CPC. Also, the husband is a doctor. They also are very SPIRITED and prayed up people fully aware of the warfare involved in this transaction...SO, I am just in awe at God. The very fact that this was a mere idea when I saw the house a few weeks ago and now there is an amazing potential owner waiting for the offer to be received so they can turn the place into a CPC...mind boggling....incredible...Please continue to pray...

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Nahum/Bible study!

I would love comments and input as to how the book of NAHUM applies to the current abortion issue. I had the book swirling in my dreams the other night and don't even remember reading it in a long time. I didn't study it really in the past but then when I read it found it really interesting. Strongly encourage anyone involved in the pro life cause to read the book...still I would love to hear comments and insight from my blog world friends....

Asking for Intercessory Prayer!

A month ago I prayed in front of an abortion clinic and found a house for sale next to it. I couldn't sleep at night because I had to figure out a way to acquire that house. I couldn't afford it myself but couldn't stop thinking of it. So,I spent the next few weeks in meetings with realtors, attorneys, pro life advocates, crisis pregnancy center leaders. Some of my friends started to pray as well. Then a few friends and i annointed the property and prayed on it. Different friend of mine came up with contracts for partial ownership. We would have to do some serious fund raising. Miraculously, an amazing couple came forward to offer to buy the property to lease then to a CPC. The offer was put on paper today. ALSO, the woman is a prayed up woman. She has some intercessors. One of her intercessors advised her to make sure she is hearing from God because this will be a battle like she has never seen. The potential owner got off of the phone...prayed and decided to still make the offer. She envisioned one of the rooms that over looks the abortion clinic to be the prayer room....anyhow, she asked that we all get prayed up. I am asking for extra prayer tonight and in the near future to make this happen and for protection over her family and ours....and those involved in this ...