Okay...we lost....

I spent most of last week pretty depressed about the election and then just decided to remain positive...I also have to admit that I am excited about having an African American president. BUT I would have much rather had an extremely pro life president. My family was fighting and my husband and I realized that we had to put on happy faces for the kids who have to face friends that voted for OBAMA. So we have agreed to pray for the president even though we don't agree with him. And so we say things like "Dear God, protect our president and his family and change his heart regarding little babies." It is really hard for me as a post abortive woman to remain optimistic when I feel like the doors to abortion under any circumstance are about the be blown wide open...but I am planning on being pro active. i am writing a bible study for mothers and daughters to discuss abortion....and I will continue to fight. i am also going to go through training at our local Pregnancy Support Services office in May...so I can help with the post abortive and abortion minded women. I will pray they will be moved to give life....OH and I submitted my manuscript for my book to be edited today.....

John McCain and His Pattern of Resurrection

First off I am in no way comparing John McCain to Jesus. Lately I have been waking up very discouraged about the campaign. Being a serious pro life advocate I cannot endorse Obama. I just don't see him as contributing to eliminating Roe V Wade or even creating any limitations. In fact it appears via the Freedom of Choice act he will eliminate any restrictions...So this morning I woke up with a strong positive feeling pertaining to McCain's victory tomorrow. If we follow his pattern of 'coming from behind'...and defying death and adversity we have to put our trust that his good fortune will stand. First while in the military he watched as 134 men were killed when a jet crashed into the carrier he was on...he was burned and scarred then narrowly missing death. He was deployed to Vietnam within days. Then while in Vietnam only 4 months after that incident his plane went down and as he was drowning at the bottom of a lake with broken arms he opened his inflatable vest with his teeth...as he surfaced he was taken as a prisoner of war. ...His wife and mother agreed that he was dead only to find out the GOOD NEWS that he was a prisoner of war instead...And then the doctors who took care of him thought he was within hours of death...he survived....after all of that he made it back to Washington after solitary confinement and years as a pow. This year during the primaries when Huckabee and Romney were considered the most likely victors he prevailed..Now he has been down in the polls...as he puts it "Obama is measuring the drapes"...he has been verbally crucified in the press and basically characterized in the worst way ever repeatedly by them....but somehow today as i look at how his life has evolved I can't help but think that tomorrow is going to be another bright day for John McCain. Why has God kept him alive for so long? Why has God resurrected him repeatedly? He has endured so much for this country...he is a good man that believes in the values of America and is proud of what it is and can be. I believe he has been uniquely and in a way unfortunately (through his suffering) qualified to run the country that he has fought for..And I also believe that God will have favor on his service and mercy on our country. When we see the McCain slogan COUNTRY FIRST....this is something he truly believes in and has lived out....McCain is destined for this position and I feel in my heart today that tomorrow is his victory....

What does Planned Parenthood do today with babies born alive?

What this election is like to one post abortive woman...

Twenty seven years ago I had an abortion. I thought I would come out of it free and empowered because I bought the lies of Planned Parenthood and the women's movement who championed my rights wholeheartedly. I was surprised when I immediately fell into a deep depression and months later struggled with thoughts of suicide. The feelings were intense and the sadness was great. Prior to abortion, I was always happy and handled stress in an exceptional way. But this was different. I had a baby ripped from my womb and felt totally violated. YES..I made that choice. I do take responsibility for that awful choice. THis is a choice I know for a fact I would not have taken had abortion been illegal. But I was lied to and caught off guard by the attack my body felt it had been under and I totally felt as if I had been abused emotionally as well following the abortion. With God's grace..therapy and the blessings of a great family I can say that I am healed...but the scars are there...AND all I can say is watching this election brings up so much. On the one hand I had been waiting fervently for the topic of abortion to come up in the election hoping that those who saw Obama's record on born alive babies would be shocked, disgusted and say to themselves "eventhough I am liberal I would never vote for a man who would make that kind of judgement." Well for the most part I am watching people as they worship and elevate a man who advocates the type of victimization and violation that women like myself had to work way too hard to heal within themselves....THere are women who kill themselves post abortion. There are women who remain silent forever and struggle in relationships. There are women who are infertile post abortion...the list goes on..Imagine..watching OBAMA standing proudly in front of the Planned Parenthood sign or hearing him say "my first act as president with be to sign the Freedom of Choice act". Imagine knowing that more women will potentially endure what took years to undo to myself and many others like myself. It is as if we are watching the executioner be deified by the entire society thereby minimizing our pain and our suffering.. We watch as more women are led to the slaughter..not even given the proper information or acknowledgement that there is a potential for psychological damage.I can imagine it is similar to someone who has been raped and has to watch as the rapist is let off to continue raping. And watching the people who know he has raped still inviting him to their christmas and cocktail parties....everytime I see Obama stand up there with the crowd applauding and vowing to put him in the position to sign a bill that will eliminate virtually any limitation on abortion I cringe. I cannot imagine what some of the women who are stuggling more than I are experiencing...Yes there are women out there who do not regret their abortions..but there are many many like myself..I am not the only one who struggled intensely after aborting their babies. If I didn't believe that Jesus has forgiven me i would be beside myself right now....Between his not agreeing several times to the born alive protection act...vowing to allow abortions even into the 8th or 9th month, advocating that parents are not notified and saying he wouldn't want his daughter punished with a child...I am sorry but I will always be looking at OBama and other abortion advocates as the man who opened the door to my pain and continues to hold that door open to the dozens of women who will unknowingly be walking into their depression, anxiety, guilt and regret..THANK YOU PRESIDENT OBAMA for continuing to punish the women who made that mistake while making them watch as their little sisters head into the slaughter.....

Justice for All

I was in NYC almost all of last week. But i was fortunate enough tuesday night to be able to host this amazing organization called Justice for All which travels to campuses with this very graphic and large display to engage students in conversation regarding life. They are non confrontational but their display is very aggressive. So, they are all from Kansas with some other volunteers from all over the place. I hosted the director David Lee and one other guy...We also provided a meal to 15 of the volunteers. This was really great. I was exhausted but I had a great time speaking with all of them. UNC is very liberal so the second day was really tough for them. They also host a training which I wasn't able to engage in because I was out of town. These volunteers are very passionate and sometimes discouraged. We really need an army of volunteers helping to educate people and the truth is that most pro lifers don't have the stamina to stand in front of a crowd or behind a bull horn...But that has to change as we are losing lives because there aren't enough people to stand in the gap...Pray for this group. I really enjoyed them and would love to see them come to NYC where I am sure they will be met with intense disdain but it would also be the talk of all of NYC if they were able to get there...

Disturbed! Living in the Twilight Zone!

I'm disturbed. I am totally utterly disturbed. Shouldn't I be disturbed by the potential never ending amount of abortions in this country? I would love to title this post "hopeful". I was hopeful and still do hold out an iota of hope for the end to come for abortions. BUT sometimes I look around and cannot believe i live in a world chock full of people who daily over look the death of millions of kids. I am not only talking about abortions either. There are 148 million orphans and another million children in sex trafficking and many more suffering. AM I LIVING IN THE TWILIGHT ZONE? Where is the compassion? Where is the logic in the American people? In the people of the world...Why are so many people over looking the truth and embracing lies? I feel as if I am frozen at an intersection..one that offers hope for life and the other that says if America walks down this road we are all doomed especially the unborn. And I know from personal experience that means more women will have to be blindsided by the devastation they will feel after they legally abort. Most women would never abort if abortion were illegal. I wouldn't have! My daughter would be here today. BUt I am disturbed because if we walk down the road to life then young women today and their children will be saved. If America chooses to walk down the other road with a leader that says it is OKAY TO KILL then we are all doomed......It is indeed disturbing...as I stand in wait for the votes to be counted....

Obama CItizenship!